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byebye

Baby baby baby baby baby.

Weird world.
Happy high.
Love lull.
Never die.

Destroying myself to take you down with me.

"you do hate me, don't you, johnny?"

"i don't think you have any idea of how much"

"hate is a very exciting emotion. havent you noticed? very exciting. i hate you too, johnny. i hate you so much i think i'm going to die from it, darling... i think i'm going to die from it".

Psychic pain.

"the plan was to drink until the pain's over
but what's worse- the pain or the hangover?"

The love we made at gunpoint.

its been a nightmare to me
some 1980s grief
gives me parachute dreams
like old war movies
while the universe was drawn
perfect circles form infinity
i saw the stars get smaller
tiny diamonds in my memory
i know that victory is sweet
even deep in the cheap seats

Love can't save you.

and i never really stood a chance

Pillow talk.

she said "you're pretty for a boy"
i laughed but only kind of internally

The rule book.

today will not go down in history (and theres nothing special about you and me)

Mirrors mirrors mirrors.

love or die trying

Perfume.

fall in touch
keep in love
crush on me like your favourite drug

From the top.

think i lost myself in your porteus maze
my attention span as long as my fuze
both are just short but stuck in hazy days
in the backyard of a garden flat
shooting up on her perfume
real life remedy rush
i am tired thinking of from day one to now
cause this time i am closer to my pine eternal
time machine tornado
but i only keep in linear-
only growing old
and my cracks are starting to show
and now hands seem easier to fold than to hold

yep, i am tired

Calm down.

ive got these cosmic blues in my veins again
swallowed my pride but im thinking someone spiked it
whispers are hushed into the woodwork
pine floors and pine walls
this was never where we were supposed to end up
but since we're here lets make the most of it
warm up that cold shoulder
press some sunshine back into those bones
it kind of felt like hiccups backwards in time
and even i know how silly that sounds

Dancehall valley intoxication system.

undress him with your hazy 12am eyes
kiss him in the corner of the club like nobody else exists
"it's not quite romance but it'll have to do"
"i want you in my 4am veins"
"love exists but only below the waist"
i am sure it means so much more when youre slurring your words
i am sure it means more when you wont remember his name
i am sure it means more when you say it on a fucking dancefloor

Damage.

do you think if i tore my arteries out i could rewire myself correctly this time?

Bones.

out of sight is out of mind (and i sure went out of mine)

Gunslinger.

her father is a gunslinger (or so i've been told)
that explains more than you'd expect or even care to know
while youre pushing some crystalline tropane alkaloid into your bloodstream from the back of the speaking hall
but nobody here is innocent
so line up the nosebleed seats and roll up the foreign currency
ill make you feel alive if my bank balance allows
ill make you scream out into the night before it is through
ill make you hazy, lazy, crazy
no rules, no god, no friends
just the night and its long dead ends
so let the lights go out
and kiss me on the mouth
to keep all of my secrets from pouring out

you make me feel like love rose fumes straying into the ether-
dizzy

Cheats vs shortcuts.

even hollywood couldnt write about you

The mathematics.

made me forget myself
made me forget my head
looking into those baby blues
made me forget my rules
scared the demons away
made me too afraid to pray
and no, nothing will ever feel that way for as long as the planet rotates

Grit & nails.

if there is a hell for people like you
then i am going to bring it
got a key on the chain tied round my neck
with whatever calibre waiting on the shelf
got a brand new poison lacing my lips
a hired gun with a badge at my hip
ill deal them to you for the right price
fastforward me into another life
dont think i know where my rage ends and my soul begins
not even sure that theyre exclusive
but ill fight and bleed and grit my teeth
until i can finally fall back to sleep
without the haze of a medicated me
and as i always said; meet me by the fountains
tear up all the seeds we planted
rip them from the roots if they have sprouted
set fire to the bench where we carved our names
thy kingdom come, thy will be done
will they even recognise my face?
yeah i raised hell
but now its grown up and moving on
so what do i have left?

Designer daydreams.

designer drugs/designer daydreams
i heard that he shot the stars out of the sky and buried them in the sand
sandcastle lights so bright they bleach the whites of my waking eyes

not even sleep could save me now

Medicine & rollerblades.

well you sure doublecrossed that bridge when you came to it
oh who am i kidding
i am in love with the villainy
rolling around the city on my new rollerblades

Glitches.

in and out of somnia
in and out of my mind
in and out of the country
splash
i got a puddle of sunshine or two
who cares if the card is black or red
when you made the card up inside your head
prying open so many shell
to only find sand inside
happy with a sad mind
sad in happier times
most of the time i just want it all to rewind